oh shit i've been 20 for 5 days now :(
Its boring. One of the worst parts is i'm still getting ID'd... Fuck this baby face of mine.

Star Trek: TNG and Voyager are awesome and one of my new obssessions.

I'm kinda compiling a list of women who I think are perfect.
Here's the list thus far:

Shannyn Sossamon
Emma Stone
Zooey Deschanel
Jayma Mays
Keri Hilson
Ke$ha
Molly, Frankie and Una from The Saturdays
Brittany Murphy

One person, who is not included on here, is currently standing out amongst the rest. Kate Hudson.
SHE IS PERFECT!
( Srsly )

Shit the bed; i'm 20 in 4 days :(

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I got suspended with pay from work today.
:I

I think I might need to start looking for a new job; This close to christmas as well :(

I've had a week filled with revelations. Depressing revelations but revelations none the less.
I don't want to be in a realtionship, probably for a very long time now.
I need to sort out what I'm doing wiht my life, because at the moment i'm working a dead end job with unsocial hours and for very little pay.
I need to grow up and change myself in some way.
I really want to move out but I think i'm going to have to choose between my car and moving out. My car will probably win.

Also, I put my car in for it's first M.O.T since I bought it. I pray nothing is wrong with it.
I also pray that i've not been caught on any speed camera's recently....

On an unrelated note:

Sup @ new shirts @ work

Team Jacob ftw

I hate twilight but i feel like being pompously ironic about owning this shirt.


Also. I'm sat here watching the 100 greatest adverts and again this advert is at the top of the list:


God I love Guinness.
But you know which adverst are better in terms of beer etc?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N2V8VNQczRY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VQfXkK1FD3s

(It wouldn't let me embed :( )
Mel Sykes would get it right in the bum hole.

Sup. I'm sat here waiting for someone to put the 9th episode of Glee, and, seeing as it is not up yet, I figured I'd do that proper update I was talking about.
Where to begin?

Lets start with being single again, which is, more fun than I remember it being. I've not been on the prowl for anything but somehow managed to get a lay down by the fire twice up to this date. Its just kind of been nice to be able to chill and actually find some projects to do (and by project I mean video games and Tv shows.) The only problem, per say, is that I really cannot be arsed putting the effort into anything remotely relationship-y. I have no idea why but the thought of actually being in a relationship now makes me think, "Nah i'd rather loose an arm". Even reading over a few of the last posts in here makes me laugh at myself in a way of both pity and "Oh my God was I really like that?". I miss some things, but now I just think I miss the person because I could actually be bothered for them. I'm not worried so much but I'm finding myself thinking that, if I were to get into a relationship, the person would have to be even better than the last.

I got fired from Witchwood. Mephadrone is a wonderous legal drug :) Technically shouldn't have been fired but it was white powder BLAHBLAHBLAH and I was only going to get £40ish every 3 weeks; If that.

I contracted an STD/I. I'm not really sure which one genital warts is. More infection I think?
Meh who knows. I'm pretty sure who I caught it off, and I couldn't be more ashamed. Why? BECAUSE SHE WAS MINGIN AND IT WAS FROM A BLOWJOB! Oh lawdy.

Something that happened today?
You know what makes me laugh quite a bit. People of obvious Hindu/Pakistani/Muslim/Indian/etcetc families going to see the new Christmas Carol movie. Do these people even celebrate christmas? I'm pretty sure last time I checked they didn't. This sounds racist but it totally isn't by the by.

So this is my first upload from lj mobile. Cool, cool...
I honestly thought i had sorted something since my last sort but obviously i haven't so here's a brief summary of what has happened since then.
I'm single, i got fired from wood, i got laid twice, i got an std, and i turn 20 soon. Interesting, i know :). This is just a quick post to get used to the mobile shit. I'll update properly when it's not 3.13am.

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It's been a while LiveJournal....
7 Weeks apparently.

I'm feeling tired, hungry, and grim at the moment.
Ok, so this is my excuse for not writing in seven weeks. I've been living my life and sorting things out without having to do them so through a computer screen, or felt a need to off load them onto here. The reason for that? Sarah and I have been doing quite well recently. By quite well, I mean to say getting on like a house on fire; in fact, getting on like the great fire of London.
We've been doing more things as a couple I guess. Swimming, Walking, Shopping, Going to Tatton Park (Which I still rate as one of the nicest days I will possibly ever have) and such other activities.
Sarah is eighteen now. Which she was, to put it lightly, excited about. I don't think her weekend turned out exactly how she imagined it to however. Mainly down to people being a tad selfish but also possibly due to a lack of planning. Another factor could have been that she celebrated her actual birthday about two days to early (See: Friday night @ Wood), she ejoyed herself most that night though I was somewhat gutted I wasn't out and was instead working. I also got annoyed at how drunk she got but I can hardly hold that against he; It was her birthday after all~
Saturday we all met at kitch after I had spent the majority of my day with Chris and Ben. Sarah, Shaunna, Jake and I went to Font Bar and later the Casino (which was the best part of the night in my opinion depsite throwing £11 down the drain). It was a good night, and i'm pretty sure Sarah enjoyed it. She had a complaint about Ben simply staying in Kitch, especially as it was dead.
Sunday was the day of Chester zoo. A day I had also been looking forward to seeing as i've promised we'd go from God knows how long ago. Alas, twas not just myself and Sarah present. Other party members included; Jake, Shaunna, James, Danny and Tasha. Admittidly I would have much prefferd to take Sarah alone, but she had wanted others to come and so they did. She did admit to me towards the end of the day that she would have also preffered just the two of us. It cheered me up because I'd felt she was being substantially distant with me.
Driving back from Chester was fun. By the time we got back to Sarah's though I think we were both completely shattered. Her uncle and Grandparents came round with their presents and to have some cake etc. We all had chinese and we watched Spiderman 3 (WHICH IS A GOD AWFUL FILM) until about 10.30pm. I left at 11pm after staying for half an hour jus to talk. She managed to cheer me up again just by saying "Yeah we haven't had much time to talk have we?", It meant a lot just to know she'd noticed we hadn't tlaked much as well. I left after a breif bit of a moan about my cineworld evac/staff meeting thing and how daunting it was D:

Apparently however, Sarah later cried herself to sleep. Which concerns me just a little. Sarah refuses to tell me what this is about though, a simple "Its nothing to do with you so you don't need to know". I don't know, I just thought that since we were finally back on equally good terms (i.e. one of us isn't being a douchebag most of the time) we were able to just spout things off and it not bother us or be able to confide in one another?
After all, isn't that what girl/boyfirends are supposed to do? Be there for one another and help each other if they are having a hard time? To cheer each other up when they are upset?

At the same time I feel somewhat rude because I have been somewhat pushing her to tell me. Majorily because i'm concerned and want to know what has upset her so much, especially on her birthday when i'm 100% sure she had enjoyed her day. Part of me is annoyed because I won't see her for a week, at least, and by then I should have shifts at cineworld so fuck knows when i'm going to see her. :(
I've hazard a guess at a few things but I doubt that these would affect her in the way it has. Seeing as the only other time I've known her to cry herself to sleep is when i've been a douche to her...
I'd say it was stress from her college work but she doesn't seem the kind of person to get overly stressed about it anyway. She's pretty on top of it and, in my opinion, will piss all over it anyway. Distinction all around etc.
I thought for a moment it might have been because the Saturday and Sunday didn't go exactly as she wanted but that just makes her sound a bit spoilt and she defintely isn't spoilt. However, its hardly selfish to ask your friends to come out on the actual date of your birthday for something you'vve been talking about for at least a week or two.

I just want to know what's going on with ehr and be able to be there for her. I can't be caring or help her with whatever if I don't know whats going on. I'd rather eb that then know somethings up with her and just ignore it and go about everything else....
I don't like these kind of barriers, it makes me feel very distant about us.

Its 3am now and I'm unsure whether to tell Sarah i've posted this. I can see it only causing problems to be honest.
I don't like distance :(

I don't know this has kinda shown me that we're not as perfect as I obviously think we are....

I need a haircut:
See i'm pretty sick of having long, thick hair now. Its just irritating and is pretty fucking ahrd to manage with sometimes.
Of course I kinda enjoy having it at the same time and don't really want to jsut shave my head. This took me 2 years to grow to the length ad shape it is now.
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Buying cars is so annoying:
I finally found a good enough car worth the money that was being asked for it. Of course when it came to today It had been sold....
I'm sick of getting my hopes up about fucking cars and then im still sat around. Last night was particularely bad as I was pretty much promised that if this car wasn't in bad nick (See: Dents, scratches etc) it would be a definate buy. I was told this yesterday at 3; Today at 1 it was sold...
I blame the salesman who is a douchebag and didn't have the key to the car/garage or something so that we could have seen it yesterday; Also my dad because when it came to when the dealer had the key he couldn't be arsed going down.
Oh not to mention that I burnt a load of cd's which are now just going to sit around until I actually have a reason to play them. Who knows how long that will be. :/

I can't be arsed with today at all.